Die On This Throne

I don’t move, I don’t bend, I don’t break for you
Heavy in my chest like a buried truth

You call it stubborn, I call it stayin’ alive
I held this ground while you learned how to run and lie
I stacked these walls out of blood and stone
Now you wanna rearrange what I call home

You say I’m stuck, I say I’m safe
You chase the storm, I fortify the space
My shoulders ache from carryin’ your storms
I am the dirt you danced on too long

Hands like anchors, boots sunk deep
I won’t move just ’cause you can’t sleep
If I let go, everything will spill
So I choke this steerin’ wheel and call it will

I WON’T LET GO, I WON’T LET GO
Pray all you want, I won’t trade this gold
You say it’s poison, I say it’s mine
I bled for this comfort, I won’t stand in your line

I WON’T GIVE IN, I WON’T FORGIVE
You broke every promise, now you preach how to live
If the price of change is losin’ what I own
Then carve my name in stone, I’ll DIE on this throne

You call me greedy, I call it what I’m owed
Every time I opened up, you left me in the cold
You drank my sweetness like it poured for free
Now the well ran dry and you blame me

Body like a fortress, jaw wired tight
I feed every fear just to sleep at night
I wear my comfort like a heavy crown
You reach for it, I’ll burn this whole place down

Chest like a vault with a rusted lock
Heart beat poundin’ like a drivin’ clock
If I let you in, you’ll strip me clean
So I sleep on cash and I guard my dreams

I WON’T LET GO, I WON’T LET GO
Pray all you want, I won’t trade this gold
You say it’s poison, I say it’s mine
I bled for this comfort, I won’t stand in your line

I WON’T GIVE IN, I WON’T FORGIVE
You broke every promise, now you preach how to live
If the price of change is losin’ what I own
Then carve my name in stone, I’ll DIE on this throne

You say I’m the problem ’cause I won’t move
’Cause I don’t dance when you change your tune
You lit the match and I took the flame
Now you’re bored of the ashes and you curse my name

You say “just trust”, you say "let it be"
You built this cage then threw the blame on me

I WON’T LET GO, I WON’T LET GO
Tear at my fingers but I clutch my gold
If the price of change is losin’ what I own
Then carve my name in stone, I’ll DIE on this throne

What if this weight is all I am?
If I loosen my grip, will I just disband?
Maybe I’m wrong… but I don’t know
Maybe it’s me… but I won’t let go